Chapter 78

• I'm always worrying about what comes next and how to prevent disaster. Always bracing myself for the blow, getting myself ready to pick myself back up if everything goes to shit.
• "That's just who I am" I mumble quietly and shrug. Poppy is still giving me that same old sad smile, I see it so often. I miss the 'i'm proud of you smile' I get sometimes, because it makes me proud of me too.
• "But this is your chance to break out of that same old routine. You don't want to live your whole life trapped in a box of self doubt and protection. Is it a risk? Sure it is. But it could also just be a nice holiday with your hot rich boyfriend in the city of love" I roll my eyes, she really had me going until the city of love part. I think she's convinced we are going to be forever, she's probably just doing it to help me open up about this whole thing. I can't imagine how she'd react if I told her that I've got him to stop paying me for the most part, she'd probably be naming our future children or planning my bridal shower.