Chapter 179

• Max and Rebecca are both business students but they're in the year below me, so they follow me around a lot for study notes and essay help. It can be kind of irritating so I find myself gravitating to Luke a lot more than I used to.
• "And what about Rhode , how are the two of you doing?" Her smile grows wider somehow at the mention of his name. I spent the entire train ride trying to figure out if I should tell her that we broke up or if I should lie and say that we're fine. I figured if I told her the truth then I would need to tell her the whole truth; me leaving him a note and taking off, my recent deep dive into therapy, my repressed emotional trauma. It just seems so messy. And even though I'm worried about how my mum will feel and react to it all, I need to talk to my mum about it all.
• "Actually we um, we broke up" I say in a quiet voice. Her face immediately drops, her eyes that are already too big on her face grow wider as she leans forward in her seat and reaches for me.