Chapter 136

• Well that wasn't how I expected things to go. I figured that I would be the one to storm out in a fit, that he would be the one that needed to apologise. He does, he should have told me, but I'm not completely blameless in this either.
• He's totally right; I still think that he will leave me at a moments notice. But it's not anything that he is doing or saying, it's all in my head. I think. I still don't feel like I deserve him, that I deserve this happiness or adventure that he brings into my life, so it would make sense for him to have someone else in his life. Except he doesn't, I believe him when he says it.
• But fuck I hate that bitch. Whoever she is, she's a bitch. I imagine her being some leggy blonde who has a long history with Rhodes, maybe back in the old days when he was less uptight and formal. The vision in my mind of a younger Rhodes running around New York with his friends makes me ache for all the stories he's never told me, they must be incredible.