Chapter 476

• You know that Genevieve's first word was 'poo' right? Gem was carrying her past the bathroom while I was potty training Theo and she just screams out 'poo' as loud as she could". Bryan says with a half laugh. "Of course a first word is important, but it doesn't mean everything in the world. She didn't say 'mama' because you weren't there and she wanted to make you feel bad, it just happened. And you didn't mean to miss her first word, it just happened. And that's okay. You are by no means a 'shit mother', not even close" He continues calmly, reaching out to stroke Juni's foot as she peacefully sleeps, completely unaware of her surroundings.
• "I know it's a silly thought, because I am a good mum, deep down I know that. But I know that as she grows up she'll notice I'm not around more and I'll miss more and that maybe she'll think that I am" I mumble as I use my free hand to brush the tears off my face as my vision goes blurry. Juni is everything to me, next to Rhode she's the greatest thing that's ever happened to me, and the thought of letting her down is awful and terrifying.
• "If that's how you're feeling, maybe you should take some more time away from work?" Bryan suggests softly. I love my job. And when I'm there and making a difference and meeting new people, I feel so good about myself. I just don't know if I'm ready to lose that yet. Sometimes I'm scared I'll wake up one day and regret not having spent time on my career just because I got the privilege of having a wealthy life and family. And I don't like having regrets, there have been too many already.