Chapter 339
- "When you two made that announcement part of me was thinking your were announcing a pregnancy or engagement" Mum tells me with a small giggle. I'd never thought about how I would announce something like that, but I think that's something I would tell my mum when she's on her own, if she had a negative reaction to it I wouldn't want it to be in front of everyone.
- "And if it had been, how would you have felt?" I ask her quietly. Rhode and I have talked about these things at different times, and we've both said that it's a thing for the future. But like my mum said; we've found each other so early and so we get to enjoy more time together, why hold off on things if it's what we both want?
- "On one hand I would think 'my baby is so young what will she do with her own baby or a husband' but I would also be so thrilled and excited for you...I think you've found your happiness here, and if you were happy with it then I would be too" She speaks earnestly, giving my hand a small squeeze. Something in her words sparks something in me. It's not about what 'the perfect timing' is or what is deemed socially acceptable, it's about happiness. Sometimes I feel like I've tricked the system and got everything I've wanted way ahead of schedule and to a degree that I don't deserve, and I've been so worried about that aspect of it that I sometimes forget to enjoy it. I make a promise to myself; in this year, my 21st year, I'll try to enjoy the happiness rather than question it.