Chapter 111
- Lexi’s POV
- I get woken up from my deep sleep, to the sound of somebody banging on my bedroom door. Between the knocks I can hear a child crying. I scramble off of the bed, and open up the door. I come face to face with mother carrying Matteo, and LJ is standing at her feet. Both of my boys are crying for some reason. As soon as LJ sees me, he jumps on me and wraps his arms around my legs hugging me. I bend down and pick him up and put him on my side. Then I open up my arms and mother places Matteo gently in them. The two of them instantly stop their fussing. I head back over to the bed, and I drop LJ onto the mattress. I then slide in right behind him. Mother follows us inside and shuts the door behind her. I turn on the tv for LJ to watch cartoons, then I pull up my shirt and begin breast feeding Matteo.
- Mother is taking a seat on the foot of the bed and is staring at me. I know she can tell something is very wrong with me. I take a deep breath, and start explaining to her what is the matter. “Well, it looks like we will be returning home tonight to a new roommate. Kristen is moving into the house with us, because she is pregnant with Luca’s baby. Or so she says it is his. I don’t know if it is or isn’t, and at this point I don’t care anymore.” I pause and blow out a deep breath before I continue. “That is a lie, of course I care. For some dumb reason I really do love Luca with all my heart. I don’t understand why all he ever does is hurt me. He is never around, to spend time with us, and he keeps me locked up at home. The only thing good in my life right now is you and my kids. I’m struggling more and more every day to not have a nervous breakdown or go into a deep depression. It keeps getting harder to do. Luca tells me loves me, but that can’t be true. If he did, he would have honored the promise he made to me. I’ve only asked him for one thing since we have been married, and that was to stay away from Kristen. He lied to my face when he said he would. Now my ex best friend who I loved like a sister, is moving into my home to have my husband’s baby. I will have to see her every day. Do you know how degrading that is going to make me feel. But according to Luca there isn’t to be any more discussions about Kristen. I am to obey and support him. I’ve always done everything that he has asked of me rather I wanted to or not, but I don’t think I can do it this time. I worry what will happen to me when if I defy him. He threatens to take my kids from me, and lock me up some place far away. A part of me knows for a fact that he will do it. So, what am I supposed to do. Mother I can not act like everything is fine and dandy when Kristen shows up at the house. Her betrayal along with his hurt me so deeply I can’t even explain it. At the same time, I know she is not worth me risking my babies over. So, I am at a cross roads, and need your advice on what to do.”