Chapter 234

• This definitely could be a war that we do not win. And I was not prepared for that fact. I was not prepared for us to lose. I had been so sure that we were going to win, so confident in our abilities and our progress, that I underestimated everything that Lilith could truly do. I miscalculated. All because we were able to defeat the Lycan King, I thought we were strong enough. That one victory filled me with a false sense of certainty. But that was a completely different situation. That does not mean that we are ready or prepared to take on a god. Not even close. What was I thinking, allowing myself to believe that we were somehow invincible now?
• I should not be here. Every part of me screamed that this was the wrong place to be. But she knows where Ethan and Ryker are. She has access to that information, and she will not hesitate to act on it. So, if I leave, if I abandon my position and try to run, she will go straight to the castle. Without hesitation, she will find them. And she will kill them without a second thought, as easily as if they meant nothing to her at all.
• The warriors could see the worry etched clearly on my face. My expression was giving me away, even though I tried to hide it. But they had no idea what was truly going through my mind. The anxiety, the fear, the guilt, and the deep unease all swirling together in my chest like a storm. I was trying my best to keep it together, but I was barely managing it.