Chapter 229

• I decided not to tell anyone about what the baby could do. I didn’t want to freak anyone out, and I definitely didn’t want the news spreading that either myself or the baby was actually considered a god. That kind of information could cause panic or even worse; people might treat us differently, worship us, or fear us. I wasn’t ready for any of that, and I didn’t want to put my baby in the spotlight like that either. I was still trying to wrap my own head around the idea. The thought that I could be something more, something divine, was overwhelming enough without the added pressure of everyone else knowing.
• But understanding it meant that I had a lot more research to do, and I wasn’t going to get any answers just sitting around. So I pulled the files and scrolls out of the cupboard where I had tucked them away and carried them over to the large desk in the corner of the room. I sat down, the surface already cluttered with notes and loose pages from my previous searches, and began reading through the information once again. I was hoping that something new would jump out at me, something that I might have missed before. I needed something, anything, that would help us now.
• I had been reading the same materials since the moment I arrived here, but now I was approaching everything with a completely different perspective. Before, I had been looking for a way to stop Lilith directly, but now I was searching with new clarity. Now I was trying to understand how I could use what I had, how I could tap into the powers that were apparently mine by birthright. I wasn’t just trying to survive anymore; I was trying to become strong enough to actually defeat her.