Chapter 189 Moving On

• There are people who claim that grieving becomes easier to handle and less of a burden as you learn to live your life the way you did before.
• Unfortunately, that isn't how things work-at least not in the actual world. It is heartbreaking that life will force you to continue, but the gnawing pain will dull and blur your memories. Imagine a gray, jerky TV screen that flickers every few seconds during a terrible storm. The image is still present, but it is no longer bright, clear, or identical.
• Before long, all that remains are faceless characters and voices that don't quite fit together. As a result, you'll cling to pictures in the hopes that they will help you recall them and serve as a temporary substitute until you have a more durable memory aid. You eventually give up and have to push through. This could happen at any time in the coming months, years, or even decades. Sometimes, but never at all.