Chapter 37

• I called mum and gave her the bad news. She too, like Ray was happy about my results. “This is so terrible, mum. I have failed. I know this is not what you expected of me. I am sorry mum” I said. There was silence between us for a short while. Finally, mum decided to talk. “You have done well my daughter, considering the situation you were in while sitting for your examination. You now need to move forward and strategize on how you want your life to be” she said calmly. I had to think fast. I had to know what to do with my life hence forth.
• My SMS had been replied to by the time I finished talking to mum. I analyzed the results carefully. I had done quite well, especially in the subjects which I did with a settled mind. I had scored A in physics. It was no wonder Ray had been very happy earlier when he called me. Sure, I had not failed him. Kiswahili was my poorest. I had done it when I was very sad and would alternate between crying and sleeping. I looked at my chemistry results too. It was a B. I remembered how hard it had been for me, especially the practical examination where I had mixed chemicals inappropriately. It was true after all. I was being hard on myself. I had done well. But all in all, the results were here and I couldn’t change anything. I had to think fast as mum had said.
• I called Ray to tell him about my physics results. I told him how I had been allocated ‘our bench’. He laughed out loud. “I am sure you were thinking about me, no, us when you were carrying out your experiment. It is