Chapter 25

• I went to the dispensary and took my medication. It was making me sleepy. I slept. I woke up to a knock on the door. It was the school principal and Ray. He had not gone home. He stayed to talk to his old friends. Others blamed him for not waiting for me till I finish school. Others sympathized with him too. He came in and told me that it was time for him to leave. He gave me a slight hug and wished me all the best in the examination that was to commence the next day.
• At night I could hear girls discussing my issue in load voices. May be they wanted me to hear their thoughts. Others would say that I had procured an abortion. Others said that the role model had finally showed her true colors for the world to see. It was traumatizing. I would cover my head in my blankets but they would continue more and more. The talked and laughed. I became stressed and cried. No one saw my pain. I tried hard to conceal it. I didn’t want anyone to pity me or my enemies to see that their actions were affecting me. I would sleep and dream about Ray and our baby, only to wake up and find out that it was just a dream. This hurt me even more. I wished that I would wake up and be told that I did not have a miscarriage, but the news did not come.
• The next morning, a form two student, one of the girls I had been mentoring came and brought me breakfast. She said that she would be washing my clothes since I was weak, until I felt better or better still, until I finish my examination. This was of much help to me. We went to class and started our examination. It was English Oral Literature. I tried my best but the thought of losing the pregnancy would make me not concentrate on the exams. The examination supervisor would find me crying during the examination. He called me after the paper and asked me what the problem was. I told him that I was fine.