Chapter 94 Reckoning - Part Iv

• Every passing moment after Erdem left that day, served as a stark reminder that no one could ever replace him, that his place in our lives remained untouched and unoccupied. The thought of seeking a replacement, of imagining someone else in his stead, was an inconceivable notion. And I realised that after three years, in that defining moment, as our gazes intertwined, a bittersweet realization washed over me, stirring a longing I had tried to suppress—the undeniable truth that my child had been missing a vital connection, a father's love, Erdem's love. Even if I could never accept him in my life, my child needed him in his.
• It was a pang of longing mixed with a cocktail of emotions that cascaded through my heart. The wounds of our separation, the untold stories, and the unspoken words resurfaced, demanding to be acknowledged. At that moment, I understood that the void within our lives could only be filled by the presence of him, by the love Erdem brings with him. In that moment, I made a silent vow to myself and to my child. I vowed to delve into the depths of our shared history and embrace the possibility of a future where our family could be whole. Where my child can have his father. Even if that meant that I would end up spending my lifetime under a roof with someone whom I could never love or have. I was willing to give everything up, just so my son could have a whole family, the love of his pack, to have friends who are the same as him. To have all the privileges being an Alpha heir brings.
• “Mama?” My son's voice broke through the silence as I diligently packed his bag for day care, my mind absorbed in the task at hand. Startled, I turned my gaze towards him, ready to attend to his needs.