Chapter 29

• Bella’s POV
• After I get most of the blood up, Ivan barks out at me. “Go upstairs and get cleaned up. Put your clothes in the bathtub for the maids in the morning. Now go.” I shoot off like a bottle rocket. I don’t want to be around him or anyone else for that matter. On the way up, I can’t help but stop by Kat’s bedroom. I knock on the door repeatedly. I can hear her stomping around inside her room. She jerks the door open, and takes one glance at me before wrapping her arms around me. I break right then and there. We both tense when we hear footsteps nearing the stairs. I rush off towards my room and Kat quietly shuts her door back.
• I don’t stop until I am in my bathroom. I fling off my clothes, start the shower and grab a towel and rag. I step under the warm water, and just stand there. I watch the blood rinse off my body go down the drain. I wash my hair and body in a hurry. Once I am done, I can’t help but fall to my knees on the shower floor and just cry. I cry for my lose, I cry for the way my life has turned out, but I cry the most for the child that I am bringing into this fucked up world. What type of mother am I for wanting this baby even though I know the type of life they will live. Does this make me an awful parent right off the bat. I’m already screwing up, and this child hasn’t even been born yet.