Chapter 61

• As I peered into the pitch-black abyss, the chilly breeze embraced my body. Even though it's past midnight, I am back on the hospital's rooftop. I've been standing still and pondering things for practically an hour. The faint hum of the city below, punctuated by occasional car horns and distant sirens, was oddly comforting. It reminded me that life goes on even when my heart feels frozen in time. The moonlight cast silver streaks on the cold railing, and I could almost feel it reflecting the tangled emotions swirling inside me, a mirror of the turmoil I had been trying to suppress.
• I'll admit, Agustine's remarks stayed in the back of my head. I experienced conflicting emotions. Happy? Afraid? Bewildered. My heartbeat raced in a rhythm that I hadn't felt for years, like old memories were poking at my chest. Memories of laughter shared quietly in hidden corners, heated arguments that ended in silence, moments when words felt unnecessary because a glance conveyed everything, all intertwined and resurfacing now in the silence of the night. I ran my fingers along the railing, grounding myself in its cold solidity while trying to untangle my mind.
• I let out a sigh and looked up at the stars. We are not a teen anymore. If we have decisions that need to be made, we don't have to go in circles. The cool night air carried the faint scent of flowers from a nearby garden, calming my restless thoughts just a little. I noticed how some of the stars shone brighter than others, and a part of me wondered if Agustine could see them too, if he was thinking of me even now. The way the wind brushed past my cheeks made my skin tingle, as if the universe itself was nudging me toward some long-delayed clarity.