Chapter 18

• There were a lot of files strewn all over his bed, but he was unable to focus and go through them one by one as he usually did. With thoughts of Elena clouding his head, he fixed his gaze on a certain file. He was attempting to figure out why, despite his best efforts, he was unable to move on from her body.
• He was finding it difficult. It was wrong of him to act in such a way. Even though she was supposed to be his sex toy, it was not to be pleasurable. He wasn't supposed to cling to her body to the extent of loving her moans.
• He pushed the files to the side. “She's supposed to be here but she left ... and I'm sure I woke up after she left. But why? Why can't I sleep without her? I shouldn't be longing for her body that way even as a sex toy…” he stood, transfixing his palms on his waist. "I was not intended to make love to her, but rather have sex. Was she meant to moan with delight at first? She was supposed to be begging me to stop because it was painful not asking for more…”