Chapter 40 CONFUSED

• For the first time I let a girl sleep peacefully on my bed which was still unbelievable to me, it felt like I was sharing my body with someone else and maybe the other person had carried Clara from the gate to my room and placed her on my bed. "But why am I not reacting?" This was the question I kept on asking my self but there was no answer. I had been sitting by the edge of my bed watching Clara while she was sleeping and now I was also feeling sleepy, I needed to rest. For a moment I thought of sleeping on my bed, beside Clara but Immediately I shook off the idea off my head and decided to sleep on the couch instead. I got up to leave but she turned and I froze, my heart began to beat fast like I had done something wrong. Luckily She faced the other side of the room and within a second, she was fast asleep again. I walked to my wardrobe, took out another blanket and went to lie on the couch, though I wasn't feeling comfortable because the couch was quite small and hard.
• I jolted up to a scream coming from Clara, I hadn't even slept for an hour when I heard her scream, I ran towards her with my squinted eyes, while she kept on screaming. "She must have had a night mare" I thought, while I tried to calm her down, assuring her that with my presence everything was fine. She drew me closer to her and hugged me tightly, surprisingly I didn't resist instead I was patting her back gently in order to calm her down. She hugged me for about thirty minutes before she let go and laid back on the bed. I was in complicated situation as I didn't know what next to do "should I leave or just lie beside her?" I shook the idea off my head instantly and began to head back to the couch. Clara's hand grasp my shirt and she pulled me back. " Does she want me to stay with her? " I thought, staring at her instinctively. Even if she does, I can't sit on the bed like this all through the night. I tried to move again but she still held me back, this time her grasps was more tight than the first time and she didn't let go of me.
• " Just sleep here" She said like a whisper. I could feel the pain, sorrow and agony in her voice. Her request was quite shocking to me, I don't even come too close to girls talk more of sleeping beside one. " What is she thinking? " I thought. After much contemplation, I decided to sit beside her till she falls asleep again, then I would go back to sleep on the couch. She was still holding my hands and I knew she wasn't asleep yet, by now I was already dozing off but I still sat beside Clara.