Chapter 46 PAINFUL HEART

• I have never been this humiliated in my life. "What did Leo take me for when he kissed me?" I asked myself, feeling so used and dumped like trash. My eyes had become moist and tears threatened to drop while I tried to resist, because some maid passing by were looking, while others were gossiping. I was boiling in anger, clueless on how to react to this embarrassing action of Leo. My hand tightened into a fist and I felt like opening the door and going over to hit him all over his body until blood began to gush out badly, but I couldn't because it will be the opposite at the end. I stood at a spot, looking dumbstruck and confused on what to do. " I hate you! Leo" I screamed before using my leg to hit the door and ran away leaving the mop and bucket by his door. While I rushed down the stairs, the tears I had been holding back began to drop on my hot red cheeks in full force as I tried wiping them continuously. On getting to my room, it was lock which made me wonder who had locked it since Renata wasn't here anymore. Other workers and maid who were around stared at me continuously, making it so obvious that they were saying nasty things about me. "I heard she seduced the master, what a cheap thing" I heard a girl who passed say to a woman in her early forties, she turned and looked disgustingly at me. Others passed and said one thing or the other that pleases them. "Why can't you all mind your business and stop staring at me! Why can you just stop gossiping! " I was so angry and didn't know when I shouted at them.
• Like it wasn't enough, they began to talk about how rude I was and how I deserve the way Leo treated me. I couldn't bear to stand there and listen to their useless talks any longer, I ran out of the hallway. Few minutes later, I found myself outside walking around the compound slowly, I had a blithe idea on where I was headed but I just kept on walking. I saw a small building, it looked more like a workshop than a house and I walked over to it and sat at the front, wrapping my arms around myself. Fresh tears began to drop again and I remembered how our lives were so perfect when dad was alive, I and Jenny attended good schools, we had anything we wanted. Mum wasn't working because dad warned her not to, promising to provide everything we needed. "The daughter of a rich man is now a poor miserable maid, who got humiliated by a bastard" I said in anger as the memories flashed through my head."I hate you Leo!" I screamed loudly before picking a stone and throwing on an innocent bird, but the bird was lucky to fly away before the stone was able to get to it. "Just when I thought, I thought, oh no what was I thinking? What have I done? "I asked myself allowed and kept on insulting Leo.
• Two hours passed and I was still there, although I wasn't crying anymore but the pain was still there in my heart. It was getting dark and cold but I sat there with blithe of any possible danger around me. I began to feel cold, but for some reason I wasn't able to stand, talk more of going to the mansion. By the time I was calm, everywhere was already dark and all I heard were flapping from the tress around which were caused by the wind. The moment I finally stood up to leave, I felt so dizzy with a terrible headache which prevented me from standing nor walking any further. My eyes were on fire, the pain I was feeling was terrible so I decided to close it for a while lying on the floor.