Chapter 34 Carina

• The way he says it with so much disdain has me pulling back to stare at him. It's adorable how he hates Padre as much as I do. This is why I like him. Despite being dumb sometimes, he's supportive in so many ways. Stretching up, I kiss him.
• He moans, pushing me back on the bed, and I let him because I need this. I need to feel something that isn't anger, revenge, or jealousy. Of course, I'm not jealous of Marianna. Just jealous of the people she has beside her. Aside from her minions, now she has De Luca, too. It's so unfair that people end up liking her even if she's the bad guy. But then again, life isn't fair, is it? All I have is this man, and that's close to no one. We are a couple, but I know he doesn't love me, and never will because he's not the sort to fall in love. He's after money. Even if we ran away together, I doubt we'd be together for more than two years. But isn't that what I want? To have money and get any man I want without the burden of feelings.
• As Damian thrusts his tongue into my mouth, I know that I wasn't wrong. Having someone I love is a weakness. One Padre will definitely take away when he finds out. Until that man is gone completely from this world, I can't afford to love and live like a normal person. So I can only settle for Damiano. Not that he's that bad or anything. In bed, he knows his way and although he's too gentle, he's good. Probably not as good as De Luca, but that bastard doesn't deserve my praise. Which means as of now, Damiano is better than anyone else.