Chapter 108 Cristiano

• I finally decided to talk to my mother because ignoring her wasn't going to solve anything. After three long months, I realized that even drinking won't answer my questions, which to be honest, have kept piling up as each day went by. Before I even start accepting who I am, I need to know why she lied to me for all these years. Why she made me hate Lombardi knowing he was my biological father. The real reason Lombardi killed my father. While I was drunk, it occurred to me that their feud had nothing to do with business. Papa found out I was his best friend's son so he went to confront him. If the truth was already out, why kill him?
• My father could have threatened Lombardi with kicking me out or even sending me away but that was no reason to kill him. The fucker was powerful. He could have found me one way or another. I think he would have enjoyed turning me against the man who I worshipped. That would have been a better revenge than killing him. I can't help but wonder if there's more. What else did they fight about that led to them drawing guns at each other?
• Parking my car in front of her house, I adjust the dark sunglasses I'm wearing, glancing around. All the memories of my childhood are fake. I don't know how to separate the truth from the lies. How can I trust anything she ever told me? What else has she been lying about? She used to be my role model once upon a time. I was so proud to have her as my mother especially when she took on another child despite being a single mom. She also never got remarried and I remember wondering if it was my fault. If I was the one keeping her from being happy. Now I'm doubting everything about her. All the good things she did seem suspicious and I'm left trying to figure out what she gained from them.