Chapter 48

• The sky was billion pure eyes of light as if the darkness of night and the light of day has come together to look beautiful. It was dawn and I was still standing in my balcony looking at the never-ending vast sky that reached beyond and looked beautiful. Contrary to what my life was.
• I thought I have been living a beautiful life. Being independent and doing whatever I wished to. There was no one in my life and at a certain period of time, I was habituated to it to the point where I didn't even think it necessary to let anyone know what I wanted or felt. Sometimes, I did think of it, how my life would have been if I were with my parents. Surely, I would have got those balloons, icecreams, and toys that every kid got but not me.
• Back in the orphanage, we made our own toys, got icecreams only when there was an occasion and balloons were like dreams. None celebrated their birthdays. It was like they didn't know or did not want to. I was the latter one. I knew my birth date but never spoke about it. At a certain point, I gave up thinking that I was separated from my parents and fell off into the river, but ended up thinking perhaps my parents wanted to get rid of me and it was why they abandoned me or threw me into the river.