Chapter 50 Anxiety

• After grieve came loneliness and after loneliness came suicidal, then after suicidal came whimpers of hope by rescuers: the do-gooder to bring people back from the brink of self-harm.
• I thought I was like that after dad died but after going through so many misfortunes, I found out that I was not grieving. Yes, I cried and had tainted hallucinations for a while. Yes, I felt the loneliness and the suicidal thoughts, but I felt like it was just a phase I had to go through to repay my dad and wash my sins away.
• It was the torture of love and it was devastatingly sad how someone could go from complete to nothing in a matter of seconds and bullets.