Chapter 8 Moments

• The drive to the grocery store was a good twenty minutes away, I knew a shortcut there but I just wondered why he chose to take the longer route.
• “You know you could just take a shortcut right?” I asked as I watched him drive taking a right turn instead of a left.
• “Yeah but it will mean less time with you so I’ll pass.” He said it so casually without taking his eyes off the road but the casual statement he just made was making my heart do a little flip.
• “So now that we have twenty minutes to ourselves, what do you suggest we do?” I sounded like I was flirting with him which I was trying not to. He immediately turned to look at me. “I could think about a lot of things but right now I just want to be with you and get to know you more.” He gave me a full smile and I noticed he had dimples on his left cheek, it was so cute. His smile was contagious and it made me smile too especially after what he said.
• “You don’t even know me at all, I could be a witch that is trying to cast an evil spell on you.” I said while trying to laugh an evil laughter like the witches but it definitely sounded nothing like it causing both of us to laugh.
• “You definitely failed the witch test then, and for all you know I could be a serial killer taking you somewhere to butcher you.” He joined in the joke, I laughed and thought that if he was one then I was definitely screwed.
• “You look to good to be a serial killer, it will be such a shame.” I paused realizing I just complimented him in a way and he chuckled.
• “It’s a good thing I’m not then, you’re safe with me teddy bear.” We’ve not even talked for ten minutes and he already has a nickname for me, is this guy trying to inflate my heart and should I really not be worried?
• “Teddy bear? Don’t you think I’m too big for that?” I asked laughing even though I liked the nickname.
• “Nope,” he answered popping the p like a child that refused to let go of their favourite toy. “You’re just like a teddy bear, your cloth is comfy, you smell nice and you make me just want to wrap my hands around you all day and cuddle with you and I don’t even like cuddles.” He was casually pumping too much blood to my heart and at this rate if he kept talking I might have an heart attack.
• “I’m pretty sure you tell that to every girl and go about giving them nicknames and all, what are you going to say next? That I’m the most beautiful girl you’ve ever met?” I intended it to come out more as a joke, me teasing him but I sounded slightly annoyed.
• He laughed a bit and realizing that I didn’t join in he turned to look at me then frowned, he looked serious now. “I don’t give nicknames to every girl I come across Renae, neither do I say things that I don’t mean or offer to take random strangers on a ride to the grocery store, heck I can even count how many times my brother has been in my car and even if I told you you’re the most beautiful girl I’ve ever met I wouldn’t be exaggerating but for now my five years old niece holds that position in my eyes.” I smiled at the last part, I’ll love to see his niece one day.
• He sounded sincere and it made me realize that this was real, it could be real and for the love of everything I hope I don’t sabotage it by saying or doing something wrong because I tend to pull away at the slightest show of affection because it isn’t something I’m used to so I’m not comfortable with it and I react in the only way I know and that is running. I didn’t want to run away from him though and whatever this could be.
• “Yesterday, was that why you… because I look like a teddy bear?” I asked laughing, I had tried to come up with different reasons he could have done that and him seeing me as a teddy bear didn’t even cross my mind.
• “I didn’t say you look like a teddy bear, you feel like one and yeah it was one of the reasons. I can’t explain it but in that moment I felt like having my arms around you and I did and you felt so soft, I like the texture of your hair as well, everything about you felt good and no I don’t do that with every girl I see, I can’t even explain why I did what I did and questioned myself on my way home, I’m sorry if I startled you though cause I understand it must have been really awkward for you but if I had another chance to I’ll not hesitate to have my arms around you again. There’s just something about you Renae. Something about you.”
• I took a deep breath as I absorbed his words, he said it so freely as if he had no idea that his words were causing a volcano eruption in my heart. The last sentence kept on ringing in my ears and I kept on taking deep breaths.
• “Are you okay?” He asked watching me a little bit confused and a little bit scared. I nodded not wanting him to worry. How do I explain that his words were stirring up a big pot of affection in my heart not just from the one I was receiving but the one I could possibly give, the one I wanted to give. I was starting to feel overwhelmed and even felt like crying. What is going on with me?
• “Sh!t, what’s wrong?” He asked as he parked the car and turned to look at me holding my hands. “Are you sure you’re okay, is there anything you need?” I shook my head and he nodded before wrapping his arms around me. Why was a simple comforting hug stirring so much within me? I must look pathetic right now and I’m deeply embarrassed and I could feel the tears threatening to escape. How could a simple conversation cause me to have a heart attack?
• When my breathing turned normal and I was sure that my tears weren’t going to spill I gently pulled away from his grasp and turned to look at the window not wanting to look at him and not wanting him to see my face. In all my twenty one years of living I believe I just had the sweetest yet most embarrassing moment of my life.