Chapter 31 Seeing Jackson

• It’s been more than a month since Liam and I have been in a relationship and so far it has been great and Nadia doesn’t have anything against me and my heart has been warming up to the little kid but my mind working the way it does I feel like it’s too good to be true and something is going to happen and I’m going to be alone again. On those days like that my friends have to remind me that I deserve good things and things don’t have to be bad or toxic before it feels real and I have to remind myself that too.
• I get a text notification from my phone and check to see it’s a credit alert from an unknown source. I check the date and I see it’s the first of a new month. Every month I receive at least $3,000 from an anonymous sender and it has been like that since my grandmother died after my college graduation. I feel like it’s one of my parents that sends it probably my father but I’m not sure about that and that’s why I haven’t spent the money in over three years and it has accumulated to a substantial amount. I just wish that if it was actually my father that sends it he would at least make an effort to get to know me and show himself to me or maybe he has another family and just sends me money out of guilt or whatever reason.
• I sigh and get out of bed, I think about how I don’t even know much about my parents. My grandmother burnt all the pictures of my mother and forbade anyone from saying her name, I guess she was really mad and sad that her daughter eloped and dumped a baby with her. She sometimes took it out on me and will always find little things to complain about but other than that she was pretty good to me but really strict. She didn’t let me go out and honestly I was more of a homebody and didn’t have any friends to go out with anyway and I often got bullied for being a loner and often made fun of because my parents left me and then they’ll often say things like how everyone in my life is going to leave me and how I won’t have anyone and no one talked to me and I made no effort to talk to them too so I was always alone, just me and my books but thankfully now I have amazing people in my corner.