Chapter 5 Scared

• I don’t think I’ve been attracted to someone before and if this is what it feels like but I didn’t want him to remove his hands from my body. His hands continued trailing higher and higher and when it reached just where I wanted him to touch and where I knew he really wanted to touch I gently removed his hands from my body. We were out in public and I’ve never liked PDA and this wasn’t even PDA, there’s no way I will let things proceed further than this, at least while we’re still here.
• “Let’s go over to my place, it’s not far from here.” He whispered in my ear trailing kisses on my neck and the hairs on my body stood at attention and it suddenly felt so hot all the way to my panties. I didn’t like the way he stated rather than asked, it’s like he was using some sort of power that was supposed to make me do as he says and it annoyed me because I really wanted to do as he stated and I didn’t like the way my body was reacting to his, he made me wanted to strip naked and let him have his way with me and the fact that my line of thought was going in that direction the alarm in my head went on.
• “I came with my friends, I wouldn’t want to leave them behind.” I bet if they knew about this they’ll probably put me in the car with him so it was just an excuse, I don’t think I could go to his place and control my body from being under his control, I’ve always prided myself with the thought that I was self disciplined but I know if he keeps up the touches, the smiles and the stares I wouldn’t be able to control myself. It’s like the girl I know was slowly drowning and another was fighting to come alive and feel everything I’m feeling with him till I’m in his bed satisfied but I desperately don’t want to be one of the girls he has slept with because I would regret it more than anything and five minutes worth of pleasure wasn’t worth weeks, months or even years of regret and heartbreak when he’s done with me.
• “I need to go find my friends, today is supposed to be one of the days we spent quality time together.” I stood up to leave and turned to look at him to watch his expression, he looked disappointed for a moment but I caught him staring at my ass.
• “Okay then. I’m sure we will meet again,” he paused like he wanted to add my name for extra effect and I realized he didn’t get my name, it was better that way.
• I gave him what I think was a sexy smile and made extra effort to make sure my butt swayed rhythmically as I walked away and I bet I heard him chuckle and I let out a small smile. Well that was thrilling.
• “What happened between you and Mr hot pants?” Lily asked as I approached her. Goodness, were they watching?
• “What do you mean?” I asked feigning ignorance.
• “Come on, I saw the way he’s looking at you even now and you seem all flustered, did you guys make out?” She seemed pretty excited and curious and I know the moment I answered her question she will announce it to the rest of the group and probably add things that didn’t even happen.
• I chose to ignore her question and ask her a question instead, “ How is he looking at me?” I wanted to know if he was looking at me mysteriously, admiringly or just looking at me like he wanted to screw me which I think was the situation.
• “He’s looking at you like he finds you interesting and challenging but more than that he’s looking at you like he wants to take you to his bed and give you the best sex of your life.” She answered and I burst out laughing, trust Lily to be really descriptive.
• Interesting, challenging, that sounds nice, I bet if I looked at him now I will give away the fact that I also want him to give me the best sex of my life, to please him and to be pleased. I’ve never had thoughts like this before because no one has ever sparked them so right now it was starting to feel overwhelming and I really needed to talk some sense into my head and breathe.
• “Goodness, you look like you want to be tied to his bed.” Lily stated in shock and I blushed knowing I wouldn’t mind that, gosh I really need to talk some sense into my head. Where is all these coming from?
• “You’re just imagining things Lily, I’m going out for fresh air.” I turned away quickly before she could say anything else. Once outside I let out a breath I didn’t know I was holding. Goodness Renae, what has gotten into you letting a stranger touch you like that? I asked myself as I started my pep talk. He really didn’t seem like a stranger though even if he was, he felt comfortable. I just hope you never see him again because I can’t imagine what you’ll let him do next. I began to imagine all the things he could do to me, all the places his lips and fingers can be in. For goodness sake snap out of it Renae. I sighed as I decided to forget about the incident, nothing good was going to come out of it anyway.
• “Why are you all alone here?” I heard Jason ask and I turned around to face him.
• I said nothing as I hugged him and he returned the hug. “Are you okay Renae? Did someone hurt you? Don’t tell me someone touched you? Tell me who I have to go beat up?” He asked and I laughed. I like how they all seem to care about me.
• “I’m fine Jason, nothing happened.” I answered, nothing happened except from the fact that a guy just unlocked desires I had long buried and I was not fine because I am scared of what the outcome may be.