Chapter 70 Crossroads Revisited

• I found myself lying and staring at the ceiling again, thoughts racing in my head. Just when I thought I was finally over and done with it-over and done with him-something yanks me right back in. It was as though my mind couldn't help but loop right back to Ethan, the so on-going tug of war in my head between letting go and holding on that was exhausting to say the least.
• I sat up in bed, rubbing my temples. The last few months were chaotic: work had shifted, I'd drawn clearer boundaries with my client, and yet. Ethan was still there, hovering in my mind, an unresolved question I wasn't ready to answer.
• I sighed and went to the window to peer out at the city lights. I had always found the soft hum of the traffic below soothing, but tonight it did little for the storm in my head. It took so much to get me here: battles, choices, defeats, and successes. I struggled to create my own path, independent of everyone else's input. But no matter how hard I tried, there was still one thread left tangled: Ethan.