Chapter 111

• Desire to control things
• His becoming my student redeemed me a little. It revives a sense of living in me. He became my friend, the only one that I had in the lone world that I lived in. Everything was just great until he suddenly realized that he had some feelings for me. That is what ruined everything. When I ran for this freedom and evil caught us with me, he was there. Drove us to the hospital and even paid for our bills. He never left, even when I kicked him out. He stayed. He offered me a home, and I accepted. He has provided us with food, shelter, and everything else that we need. We have more luxury here.
• God knows that I do not take it for granted that he has done all that for us. I am thankful to him that my child is not counted among the street kids. That my child is having a taste of what life is. I can never thank him enough for that. To be honest, it hurts that he is ruining things between us, because I would never have wanted things to end up sour between us. I would have wanted him to remain a good friend. My buddy. My knight in shining amor. My Gurdian angel. I love him as a friend and my helper so much that I do not want to hate him. But with everything that he is doing, I am afraid that he is pushing me to hate him. And maybe I should do something before that happens. For the sake of the goodness he has done to me.