Chapter 1449

• Inner Diva-
• I could never tell her this, but I can tell you. You see, my feelings about her were always completely secret. They still are. But the essence of them, of what she did for me, has fuelled me all this time. I’ll tell you it all from the beginning, so you understand.
• As far back as I can remember I’ve been enamoured with the theatre, in the way that countless girls before me have been. Bette Davies in All About Eve was particularly inspirational. You see, in my wildest fantasies I imagined myself as a diva, uttering a bon mot to a devastatingly handsome man as I draped myself over a banister in a long, sexy evening gown, cigarette in one hand, dry martini in the other. In other words, just about as far away from the real me as it was possible to get. I was shy and skinny, ashamed of my freckly legs and flat chest. I dressed like a boy, in jeans and shirts, and I never wore make-up.