Chapter 90

• Emilia admitted to herself that she was scared. He hadn't talked to her about anything or asked if she was okay with him going to see that woman. He'd decided to go whether she wanted him to or not. Why now? If he'd never visited her, why would he go now? What did he talk about with TC yesterday? And was she just being paranoid or was that guy on the bike trying to run her over? She had so many questions but no one to give her any answers. She couldn't call Thea because her friend would overreact. What if she was wrong and it was one of those crazy teenagers like Doug had said? She didn't want to scare anyone.
• But then again, if she hadn't taken things lightly the first time, would Zander still be alive? If only she'd listened to Thea and hired more people to protect them would she have been able to save him? God, the what-ifs were what had kept up most of the nights. What if she'd done this or that? What if she hadn't gone back? What if they'd stayed in Hawaii? What if... She could close her eyes and come up with a hundred, maybe more questions in under a minute. That kind of thinking had almost destroyed her. She couldn't let anything like that happen again.
• Gaby needed her to be sane. If she had to be honest, her daughter had saved her. Knowing she would soon have to take care of a newborn had kept her away from those thoughts and alcohol. At the end of the day, she'd been like every other person who wanted to forget something that had happened to them. So many times she had thought of drowning her sorrows in alcohol but Gaby had stopped her. Things could have been worse, all because that witch couldn't accept that Max loved her. She could have ended up losing two children instead of one. So whatever Max said about not feeling anything for that woman, she couldn't believe it unless she saw it.