Chapter 4

• ~ Damen (POV) ~
• I looked at Asteria who was standing in front of me. Both my wolf and I were furious as we felt a vampire’s scent on her. While ago we both lost our sanity as we heard she was calling us for help.
• ‘Everything is because of what you did to her. If not, we're making love to her at this late night. Bastard’ Is this how my wolf talks to me? Making love? My eyes fell on her body because of his words. Her nice curves and delicate body, I pressed my lips to a thin line as I calmed myself. Then she turned to me and looked at me with curious and surprised eyes. I clenched my jaws and stared into her eyes because I was angry, angry because my scent is not the scent that comes from her body.
• “Where were you, Asteria?” I asked her as I strode towards her. She took a few steps back while looking at me with a fear filled gaze. Shit.. am I that scary?
• ‘Yes’ I heard my wolf and I sighed. I really wanted to throw him out of my body. Annoying puppy.
• “Speak” I caught her wrist and said, she just looked up at me and bit her lower lip nervously. I watched her for a while and my patience flew away but I didn’t want to hurt her or do anything because she’s just so cute and adorable.
• “You’re not speaking to me Asteria? Are you going against your future alpha’s words?” I grabbed her close to me by her wrist and asked.
• ‘Only mate can go against our words. See, she’s really adorable’ I heard my lovesick wolf’s voice and I just simply shut him speaking to me because he’s not letting me make her speak. He’s just making me hug her and cuddle.
• “I.. I don’t know” finally she spoke but that wasn’t the answer I expected, what the hell? Why is she lying to me?
• “Really? You don’t know” I clenched my jaws and tightened the grip I had around her wrist. She’s hurt, I knew what I’m doing hurts her but she just didn’t let me see her pain. She just looked down.
• “Then why did you call me for help? You clearly called my name” I said as she immediately looked up at me. I knew she was shocked because of it. I was also shocked because I don’t know how it happened even after I rejected her. For some unknown reason, I can feel her ever since I found she was my mate.
• “How?” She asked me with a curious voice. My eyes fell on her lips and I wanted to kiss. Desire to have her was burning inside of me. Shit.. I want her, she’s my fucking mate. Without thinking about anything I grabbed her from her waist and walked towards a dark corner of her house, then I pushed her against the wall and pressed my lips on hers.
• A growl escaped from me because it was our first kiss, I pressed my body against hers and placed my hand back on her head as I deepened the kiss.
• “Mmph” A seductive moan escaped from her lips and that made my lower body become harder. I felt her hand on my waist, her small delicate hands were wrapped around my waist and she was kissing me back. I slowly pushed my tongue into her mouth and our kiss turned into a sloppy and passionate one.
• Suddenly, something hit my mind. Didn’t I reject her? What the hell am I doing? I should just make her stay away from me. With that thought I broke the kiss and pulled myself away from her. I looked into her eyes and saw she was looking at me with a questioning gaze.
• “Why the hell are you making me come close to you, Asteria? You’re seducing me” I took a few steps back and shouted at her, her eyes slowly turned moist and she quickly shook her head. It was my fault and not hers. I lost my sanity over her.
• “Damen… I.. I” She took a step towards me wanting to explain herself but my heart was cruel more than she could ever imagine.
• “Don’t.. Don’t ever call my fucking name and don’t let me hear you calling me in my dreams” I yelled at her with fury because every time she calls my name it makes me wants to go to her. Over the past two years, every night she was there in my dreams. She’s making me fall in love so I should stop..
• I watched her tears rolling down from her eyes and I felt my heart was clenching. She looked into my eyes for a while and nodded at me.
• “Okay, I won’t call your name ever again” her words felt like someone was stabbing my heart with a hundred daggers. No, I didn’t want her to not call my name. I want her… but I caused all these things to her. I made her say those words to me. I clenched my fists and jaw preventing me going to her and hugging her. Then she simply smiled at me and left while leaving me there all alone in the darkness.
• I watched her walking away from me until her figure disappeared from my sight. My vision blurred and I was surprised to see me crying for the first time in my life. I never shed tears after I cried as a baby but why did I become this emotional? She’s making me weak. My love for her makes me weak and pathetic.
• I stood there like a tree, can moon goddess just make my feelings go away? I don’t want these hurtful feelings. I want to love her and I want to be loved by her but more than anything I want to protect her from them.
• After waiting almost for fifteen minutes I decided to leave but my heart was betraying me and asking me to see her before leaving but I couldn’t let that happen because everytime I see those eyes my love increases. I let out a deep breath and walked away from her house with the same promise that I broke everyday,
• ‘I won’t come to see her again’ I broke this promise countless times. I couldn’t stay without looking at her after I found out that she was my mate and I know I’m still useless and I won’t be able to do it in the future.
• As I walked into my house, I saw my mother who was still awake. Her eyes were red and I bet she was crying. What happened to her suddenly?
• “Mother,” I walked towards her as she looked up at me and smiled forcefully. It was the same smile that she gave Asteria at the dinner.
• “Where did you go, Damen?” She caressed my face and asked. How am I supposed to tell that I went to my mate that I rejected?
• “For a walk” I lied as I sat next to her as she sighed. Then she suddenly looked at me.
• “You’re twenty now, don't you feel anything about your mate?” Her question made my heartbeat go wild with regret. I scanned her face for a while and found she was seeking a question from me.
• “No, not yet” I looked away from her eyes and said as I heard her sorrow filled sigh. What exactly is she hiding?
• “Mother, is there anything that you want to tell me?” Without answering my question she stood up from the sofa and looked at me.
• “No darling, go and sleep now” She bent down and kissed my forehead as she walked away. I was just confused because of her sudden actions but deep inside of my heart it tells me that my mother's sudden change has something to do with Asteria.