Chapter 118 A Silent Death

• When everything is just happening all at once and you do not know what to do, what to say, or even think. I found myself picking up the same thing over and over as I cooked. I found myself asking what I had already put in and what I hadn’t. When I finally tasted the steaks, they were inedible. The thought to call Hendrix and ask him to bring dinner was quickly pushed off. Ryan’s words came back to haunt me. I knew Hendrix had sacrificed a lot but how much was a lot? I had a feeling it was more than I could even imagine. It was eating me alive, like acid on my heart. I knew I could never repay him, it wasn’t something I could repay.
• I picked up my phone and Blue, walked out to get some take out before Hendrix got home and found no dinner. I needed to be useful in something. I realized when I was standing in the street that I hadn’t called an uber. I went back to the house and walked out when the car had arrived. It was when I had to pay for my uber that I realized I had left my purse.
• Me being out of the house turned to be dangerous. My brain wasn’t functioning at all and with Blue in my arms I was soon going to find myself walking into traffic. I got the take out, paying more attention so we could get back to the house in one piece.