Chapter 5 Decide

• 'I was supposed to only have a romantic relationship with my boyfriend, being the only person I choose in my life, but now... What am I going to do? Why did you have to be so fertile, Rain? It was supposed to be unlikely to get pregnant if he didn't have his orgasm inside me! And now I'm pregnant and abandoned,' I tell myself mentally.
• I run away from his house and pray that it's all a damn nightmare, but almost being run over keeps my senses alert and I realize that no matter how terrible what I'm going through now is, it's my reality.
• 'Maybe it's just a mistake. Maybe I'm part of that remaining percentage where the test fails. So, it's best for me to take a blood pregnancy test. But then they would find out that I'm a werewolf and logically, my pack would be informed that there's a new baby on the way,' I tell myself mentally.
• 'This can't be happening to me,' I whisper in fear. 'No, maybe it's good. Humans say a baby comes with its blessing under its arm.'
• 'No, no matter how many times I say it, it won't sound better. You're in serious trouble, Rain. For being lustful and very fertile, you're in serious trouble,' I tell myself mentally.
• Knowing that I shouldn't show my pain, I walk trying to appear calm, so that my pride isn't hurt even more, but the memories play against me, because the man I love was kissed and touched by another woman, who was his fiancée and I... was called his lover.
• If he was interested in breaking my heart and destroying my pride, he did it perfectly, although my stupid mind still thinks it's a mistake.
• Unaware, I arrive at the university just in the workshop where he always was when I looked for him. So, I smile feeling pathetic.
• 'Why did you come here, fool? Do you want his classmates to see how pathetic you are?' I ask in a whisper.
• 'Rain...' says Lake and just hearing his voice fills me with disgust.
• 'Don't you dare say my name, Lake. I don't want you to mention me with your dirty mouth,' I say, noticing scratches on his neck, like purple marks on it.
• 'Are you Scottish, Rain? Only people from there are the ones I've seen with such red hair,' says the woman I saw a few hours ago on the kitchen island where he made me his weeks ago.
• So, disgust fills me knowing that I was used and she seems to feel good about my suffering, as if she were used to deception and seeing how Lake breaks the hearts of fools like me who have fallen for his charm.
• 'I won't allow you to mention my name either, slut,' I say angrily.
• 'Look, stupid...' says that woman and Lake grabs her arm to stop her.
• 'Don't call her that, Rain. Respect her,' says Lake, looking at the woman he was kissing, and then looking at me coldly.
• I can't understand what's happening, but I feel like my life is falling apart, and that's why I must calm my heart to be able to breathe deeply, because I need a big breath to not go crazy.
• I haven't recovered from the humiliation at his house to endure another, but my legs won't let me move. It's as if they're stuck to the ground, waiting for the blows to end my life.
• 'You can't scream for someone who really doesn't deserve the slightest disturbance,' I remind myself clinging to a pride that I don't know if I can boast.
• 'What did you say?'
• 'You must be respectful to... my fiancée,' says Lake and I smile.
• 'You have no idea how happy it makes me to hear that, Lake. You've taken a weight off my shoulders,' I say with pain.
• The concern of how I would react for being with him having 'my fiancé' completely disappears, as well as any opportunity to face my pregnancy together.
• So, I swallow hard and remain masochistic, because I can't move and on top of that, I need much more to forget him, because even though my heart hurts, it loves him. That's why I swallow hard and continue with my conversation.
• “It's all over and you have no idea how happy that makes me, Lake. I hope to never see you again in my damn life. At this moment, there is no longer a you and me, much less the possibility of an us.” I say, before leaving the workshop and taking a taxi outside the university.
• “Where should I take you, miss?
• “To a place where I can be alone and have a good view. I need to think.” I tell the taxi driver and he nods, then I walk away from the university where I doubt I will return.
• 'My memories with him will prevent me from staying even a second.' I tell myself mentally as I wipe away my tears. 'Lake came to destroy me. He came to end everything.'
• Lake, my affectionate ex-boyfriend, seems to have stayed in Rome, because the man he left behind shows no intention of affection towards me.
• 'He doesn't even chase after me.' I tell myself mentally.
• I sigh deeply and sadly, watching as the houses pass quickly by my window. I don't cry, I refuse to cry in a car, like the foolish woman who was deceived and only noticed it after getting pregnant.
• Therefore, with determination, I look into nothingness, trying to distract myself from my problem so as not to cry, I can't keep crying.
• Quickly, I roll down the window so the breeze hits my face and it's not my out-of-wedlock pregnancy with an unfaithful human that invades my mind.
• The taxi stops, I pay the fare and walk across the bridge that I only saw when passing by car. Although there are many cars passing on the road, the pedestrian part is lonely, and the view from here is too pleasant.
• 'If only seeing this would fix my problems, it would be perfect.' I tell myself mentally.
• With the breeze hitting my face strongly, I slowly feel my tears leaving my eyes, giving clarity to my vision that had been clouded by them.
• Feeling a lot of pain, I let out all the tears I have inside, while the pain grows stronger. I can't find a way out of everything that's happening to me and my problems triple with my pregnancy.
• 'If I weren't pregnant, it would just be a failed relationship, but now... I have his child in my womb. I'm pregnant with an unfaithful human who played with me.' I tell myself mentally.
• “What are you going to do now, Rain?” I ask myself in a whisper, while my phone rings insistently.
• I smile bitterly, because I wanted it to be Lake telling me it wasn't him or maybe that he has a twin brother who pretended to be him. Any believable excuse, I wouldn't doubt it, but it's not him.
• The ringtone tells me it's my father and that's why I hesitate to answer. With so many things that have happened to me in less than ten hours, I don't have the energy to talk to my father. The music stops and I pick up my phone to look at the dark screen.
• 'If you don't answer, I'll send for you right now.' Says a message that lights up my screen.
• I sigh deeply and when he calls me again, I answer knowing that I can't hide for so long.
• “Father...
• “One week.” says my father and I sigh deeply.
• “What are you talking about now, father?
• “In a week you are getting married, Rain. The wedding will be in Russia. So, go home now, they are waiting for you to leave and before you say that your classes...
• “Alright, father, I will do as you command.” I say hanging up the call.
• It's best to leave. I don't want to meet a man who humiliated me so much again. I can't see my classmates and much less, I can't bear them asking about him. I can't do it.
• “It's best to leave and forget... forget him.” I whisper in pain, placing my hand on my belly.