Chapter 5 I Don't Trust This Man

• Selene’s POV
• Aside from the fact that being in that intimate position with my murderer, brought a whole lot of negative memories to my head; That very position where I could practically feel his breath was the closest I had gotten to any man in all my life as far as I can remember.
• And so, you could see another reason, aside from having disliked him for murdering me; why I had wanted to yank myself away from his hold, but I couldn't.
• Even though this was me trying so hard to blend in my new self entirely without risking my life.
• I just have this strong feeling that the two of us couldn't be any more than two parallel lines that can never meet.
• Still on it, he wrapped me in his Alpha-sized body, and I wouldn't lie that it felt way more comfy than I had envisaged, even though the other part of me grumbles against it in my head.
• “I hope you are okay now?”
• His voice came like a gentle whisper just next to my ears, and that was just way too soothing and calming to my soul, as I never expected the Alpha Kieran I had known to be this calm for any reason.
• “Yes…yes. I am…am fine.” I stuttered, but then still tried to maintain this calmness that was a total contrast to what anyone could sense from the way I just spoke.
• “Thank you so much for coming through.” I added.
• “I wouldn't know the plans of the attackers before you got in.”
• “You don't need to mention it; it's my duty to protect you and the pack in general. But then, I know that you aren't so relaxed yet because of the attackers, but I promise you that it won't repeat itself again.”
• He must have sensed the quivering in my tone of voice.
• “Thank you, my Alpha. The most important thing to me is that you saved me and that you are here now.”
• This wasn't my personality to fake as if I was really enjoying his company, but now fate wants to force me against my own wish and wants me to swallow it hard like I had no choice.
• But then, at this point, I had no choice but to go with the flow.
• Just immediately, my thought flashed to the journal I must have carelessly dropped on the floor somewhere in the room, and my heart sank as I wouldn't want Alpha Kieran to know about it all.
• You know, that must have been Raven's little secret that she must have kept away from everyone in there, which Kieran, her supposed Alpha, wasn't an exception.
• Exposing the journal might simply mean one thing, which is putting my life at risk; who knows?
• I used my foresight to search the room for the journal around where my eyes could reach, but it seemed there was no sight of it coming forth.
• “Oh shit!” I mumbled inwardly that I could barely hear myself.
• “What's that?” He questioned.
• Oh, mine. How could I possibly forget that werewolves have heightened senses of hearing, let alone an alpha who is likely to be at an advantage over all werewolves in the pack in all ramifications?
• “I guess that you are still having little flashbacks about what must have happened, and I suggest that you follow me to my chamber till the memory clears out of your head.
• To help with that, I would get the pack maids to clean up this place and also have the whole chamber rearranged. I think that would go a long way to help you forget what has happened. I can't have you live in fear in my own pack.” He growled, leaving no room for negotiation.
• I believe this wasn't a nice time to counter his words, and so I let his decision be final.
• “For now, let's go to my chambers so I can help you to relax your nerves.”
• He said again and let loose of his tender grip he had on me earlier.
• He dragged me alongside to follow in suit just right behind him.
• Just as we were about to leave my room chamber, I abruptly sighted the journal just at the corner of the room.
• I believe I couldn't search for it very well at first when I used my foresight, as that wasn't enough to look around all over the room.
• Thank goodness that Alpha Kieran didn't take note of it, but now the thought of how exactly I would be able to move it away from that position so that he wouldn't notice it was the next, but nothing was coming to my head.
• Nevertheless, if I want to have my way, I always find a way to. Just then, an idea popped into my mind because I had to do something real quick, as I couldn't determine the fate of the journal that was carelessly dropped on the floor.
• Just when I got to the closest spot where I could reach for the journal, I hastily slipped my hands off his palm, letting out a sound, “Ouch!” like I had encountered some difficulty in walking.
• Simultaneously, I kicked the journal to a nearby wooden couch, and in a split second, started rubbing my left leg profusely like my life depended on it. I felt a relief off my heart as I knew the journal was safe now and I could come back for it later.
• “Sorry about your leg. I will get the human doctor to look into it later.” He said with darkened eyes.
• “You know what, I wouldn't mind carrying you to my chambers in case you can't walk very well.”
• Just before I could object to his request that seemed to be more of a concrete statement, he already lifted my legs above the floor with both hands, had one of my arms curled around his neck, and we both left the room.
• I wouldn't say why he has been unnecessarily nice towards me because this was far-fetched from the Alpha whom I think I know.
• At this point, I couldn't help but think that Alpha Kieran might be putting up a show so that I wouldn't suspect a thing, as I still felt I wasn't safe with him.
• I have every reason to think that he planned out everything that just happened with regards to the attack, and it would take a whole lot to prove that he didn't.
• But I wouldn't lie about the feeling of an unexpected pull towards him the moment I was enclosed in his arms.
• I felt this emotional connection so intense that it wants to take my breath away.
• There is no fact that would dispute the urge I try so hard to do away with whatsoever feeling that is trying to grow between us.
• I don't trust this man that had my arms around his neck for anything.