Chapter 183

Lucas hadn’t come for her at night. He hadn’t sent word that he wanted her to join him or that he intended for her to be anywhere expect her room. Now she knew how Kathy felt when Lucas didn’t send for her night after night. It infuriated her. Didn’t he want her next to him like she wanted him? Did he spend his stubborn night tossing at the absence of her body near his?
Kathy was desperate for his attention, but Anna could go her whole life without it if he wanted to play that sort of game. Now that she wasn’t a maid anymore—was she allowed to leave? She was tempted to. She daydreamed about packing her things and leaving the palace forever.
Especially when she spent the night tossing and turning and wondering where he was and why he wasn’t there with her. Those sort of weak thoughts made the fight or flight part of her mind fall into action and it terrified her. She didn’t want to become dependent on a man that was utterly unpredictable and always knew how to agitate her at any moment he wished.