Chapter 8 Farewell Hometown

• I don't know how long I cried on that bathroom floor, but I couldn't stop. I could not do it, no I think on the contrary that I did not want to do it.
• I stayed like that for long hours before realizing that the sun was already low in the sky and that the orange tint that announced the beginning of the night was already there.
• I looked at my mother's lifeless body and decided to follow her last wishes. There was no point in me staying there anyway. It wasn't going to bring her back to life so I took it upon myself and got up deciding to call the ambulance.
• I had nothing that mattered in my life now, I felt so empty inside. I went down to the living room and dialed the SAMU number.
• With pain and sadness, I told them that my mother had just passed away and that I needed them. Then I let myself slide to the floor and started crying miserably.
• The voice in my head had finally closed its mouth leaving me finally at peace with my sadness and my dark thoughts. I heard the doorbell ringing and I immediately said to myself that the SAMU had been surprisingly fast, it hadn't even been five minutes since I had called them anyway.
• I sighed before barely getting up to open the door for them, but instead of the ambulance, I found Chad and Stacy at the door. They looked worried and I could understand them given the way I had to leave school in the morning but especially my rather strange behavior. Knowing them, they must have had a terrible time, it's nice but now that I know the truth about my life and especially my nature, I should say goodbye to them.
• When I think about it, it's rather farewell that I should say to them.
• I stepped aside giving them access to the house as I heard Stacy gasp in surprise before speaking.
• "But what is that? Have you ever had a pet? And why the house is so ...."
• " My mother is dead"
• I cut them off with my announcement and they were silent for a moment, certainly stricken by the news, before Chad came over to hug me to comfort me.
• My heart sank in my chest before I realized that I would soon lose this warmth, everything I ever had from this peaceful existence in this town, my friends, my lover, everything that felt normal and pleasant. I will lose everything and find myself in an unknown existence. I don't know what will happen in the future but I have a feeling it won't be easy.
• I accepted Chad's hug before looking at Stacy. I sighed realizing things that I had always ignored before deciding that before leaving I would settle everything. I will leave things as they should be.
• The SAMU arrived and they took my mother's body to the morgue. I scheduled the funeral service and two days later, we paid tribute to my mother.
• There were neighbors, my classmates, my friends, and other people that I imagine my mother had had as friends or acquaintances.
• I couldn't cry anymore, I had other things on my mind that were scary for me. I thought about how soon it wouldn't be easy and I was so scared.
• I sighed before looking at my mother.
• "Don't worry Mom, I'll manage and do as you said... I'll go."
• The funeral service is over and I stayed with Chad and Stacy.
• "Babe, what are you going to do now? I mean ..."
• " I received the response from the university and it was positive."
• "It's awesome and..."
• " I'm not going to go... I'm going to quit my studies and go back to my mother's hometown to find my grandparents and live with them. I also have another very important thing to do there so we will never see each other again."
• The two were stunned for a moment before Chad spoke.
• " I understand that you are sad and confused babe but please don't say such crazy things... You will overcome this ordeal and you will only come out of it stronger. You have to continue your dreams for your mother and..."
• " I do this for her and me. Anyway, I plan to leave tonight I just wanted to let you know. Then I already sold our house so nothing keeps me here anymore."
• I know I was cold but I didn't want to have feelings that would keep me here. I didn't want to feel sadness and grief that would have made me mindlessly reconsider my decision.
• I'm not like them and it would be stupid to stay with them knowing the changes taking place in my body. I don't have the right to put them in danger but above all to put myself in danger.
• My parents risked their lives for me to have a future so there's no way I'm spitting on their efforts for futile emotions.
• I sighed before moving over to the window.
• " Babe you're sad I know it but... Think of us, of me I... I love you."
• My heart was afflicted before taking me back.
• " Me... Well I don't love you anymore."
• " How? But it's impossible you say anything and..."
• " What happened during the summer holidays two years ago? I mean when I went to the beach with my mom? When I got back you looked weird and Stacy I can see from the way you look at Chad that you have feelings for him so spit it out where I'm going to because someone already fried you around me."
• Both looked cold as Chad sighed.
• " Nothing important I swear, we saw each other from time to time and got closer, so we went to the carnival, the euphoria and the atmosphere made us lose our temper and exchanged a kiss. But it was at the time and I quickly regained my senses. Babe, I swear it meant nothing to me."
• I looked at my best friend and sighed. For Chad maybe, but not for Stacy. She always had a crush on him and I knew it, but I was a bitch and approached him before her. Of course, as the popular girl in high school, he chose to go out with me. We were friends but that didn't stop me from taking the guy my best friend was in love with knowing her feelings.
• She kept a low profile but in fact, I'm the bitch here.
• "Never mind you cheated on me..."
• "No Sophia listen to him, it was me who kissed him you don't have to blame Chad I swear, and..."
• " Ah, Stacy you tire me playing your minx like that. You've always pissed me off, you know... Playing the nice, super-boring girl, but now I can tell you to your face... you're tiring me out. And to come back to our relationship, I became interested in Chad because you liked him, then I didn't like him so I kept him with me because he was obedient. The proof during the same summer holidays, I met a guy with whom I slept. Do you know what I mean Chad? I cheated on you..."
• My friends were stunned by my revelations as my heart writhed in pain. I smiled before turning around.
• " Now that I no longer have to pretend I can tell you that I have always despised you. Ah, now I have to go my taxi has just arrived."
• We heard horns outside and I took my suitcase leaving my friends who were sawn on the spot without another word.
• I had been mean and cruel but it was the right thing to do. No doubt they would have wanted to know where I was going and would have wanted to visit me often, but with this play, they will just hate me and so I would have cut off all ties perfectly.
• " Farewell."
• I left the house with a sad face then recovering myself I decided to erase all traces of sadness to concentrate on my resolutions.
• Find my family and get revenge on my parents' murderer.