Chapter 72

• I feel feverish. Blind, partly deaf and bound, fully under Stephane's expert control. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else in the world right now. But here. With him. Doing things to my body that makes me feel things I have never felt before. He is skillful with the way he blends the pleasure and pain that it gets to a point where I don't know what to do, how to react, whether to moan or scream in pain, I end up doing both or a version of it.
• I can't tell accurately because of the noise blocking ear muffs in my ears, but Stephane continues the maddening routine of using the leather whip on me, then smooching the spot, over and over again. I can't tell what is pain and what is pleasure anymore. It is all rolled into one intoxicating mix.
• Because I only have my touch and smell sensations, it makes everything all the more intense. I am panting now, anticipating the sting of the whip because I know what would follow, but nothing comes and I try to steady my breathing but then he leans in close to me from behind and I lose my breath again. His mouth is hot on my neck.