Chapter 42

• "Yeah." It is about three p.m, if I leave now, I will be back in school before the sun goes down. By evening, I should be reintegrated back into school mode. Hopefully, I can leave him behind in this basement when I leave. I can't afford taking thoughts of him with me back to my life outside of here.
• "You don't have to leave immediately, are you mad at me?" He asks, watching me like he is searching for something in my blushing face. I avert my eyes. Hating myself for being dumb and spinning ideas and fantasies about us out of nowhere. He is clearly in this with his head screwed on tight.
• He is not about to jeopardize his marriage with my mother because of me. I mean nothing to him other than the sex. And now he wants to define the sex too, he wants to put restrictive boundaries about it. I don't know how I feel about being in a fucking BDSM relationship with him. I don't know if it is something I can handle without losing myself completely in him.