Chapter 100

• "Oh." I say. I feel the gulf between us widen, suddenly very aware of the fact that she is not holding me back, not returning the embrace. I take a cautious step back from her, my heart beating loudly in my ears, it is deafening and drowns out everything else.
• This is it. She knows. I am fucked. In this awful moment, what I feel is a shallow sense of relief. It is bitter and wrong, but it is there, creeping up on me slowly. Relief that I don't have to hide like this anymore and lie and lie my way past a line I can't come back from. As if I haven't already crossed that damn line long ago. As if I wasn't unredeemable at this point.
• "She is the same." She sighs sadly.