Chapter 41 You Have Fallen In Love With Him, Haven't You?

• I sighed. "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry," he whispered. "I've made many mistakes in my life, but the one I can never forgive myself for is leaving in the first place. But Leia, I had many problems. It was chaos back then, I lost control of my life for a long time, your mother suffered because of me, I wasn't a good example for you," he clarified. "Leaving was the best option. But I managed to get out, it took me a long, long time. When I came back, I thought I could finally make things right, but I had already failed your mother once, I had failed you..... She couldn't forgive that. She was looking for a way to be present in your life, to see you, to hear from you..... But if I left, it wouldn't hurt enough a second time," he whispered. "I apologize for everything, Leia. I'm sorry I left and came back like this, I'm sorry you found out the way you did.... But you're right, I respected your mother's decision even after she died, and when I knew it was the end, I understood that you deserved to know," he explained. "I couldn't go without telling you the truth, I couldn't go without telling you, Leia, understand," he whispered.
• My tears fell quickly without thinking, once again the wound was open.
• "I... I even, I know what to think, how to feel..." I whispered immediately. "It all happened too fast, I didn't just find out... I found out about Mom and Darren, it was too much for me.... I thought it was the end of me," I confessed in a whisper. "You knew, did you really know all this time?" I asked. "How is that even possible?" I insisted.