Chapter 73 Tidings

• I was glad my teacher Arthur had made sure I knew everything about sex. I doubted the Alpha would have approved of his teaching me about oral sex and especially sodomy. Arthur called these lessons 'secret lessons'. Arthur didn't share the Alpha's opinion of sex. He admitted he had had a great deal of sex, and I got the impression some of it was with human males. He certainly never came out and said that. He said things like, "Male sodomy, both insertive and receptive is popular with a great many human males, and always has been. It can be extremely pleasurable and doesn't necessarily lead to the kind of problematic romantic relationship that can develop between a Vin-Ta and a human woman. Believe me, a hole is a hole." My father approved of Arthur teaching about sex. He said I had to learn it somehow. The Alpha never knew about these lessons. I wasn't sure if my mother knew. I liked Arthur very much and I knew I would miss him.
• I returned to my fantasy about my father. I was sucking my father while the Alpha slowly pushed his giant erection into my ass. Suddenly, I panicked, feeling massively guilty. I was too used to avoiding thoughts about sex. I sighed and gave up on my fantasy. Maybe someday...
• I knew I shouldn't feel particularly guilty about my feelings. I didn't plan to act on them. Besides, I'd learned from Arthur that most pack Vin-Ta didn't worry about human notions of incest. It was apparently quite common in other packs. But it wasn't really even incest. My parents adopted me. Like I said, I knew I shouldn't feel guilty. But I'd been brainwashed and I did.