Chapter 26

• I sit upon the cold, hard, unforgiving tile floor as I struggle to recover. My stomach flips violently as I lean my back against the coolness of the tub. I pull my knees to my chest, knowing that my need to hurl is done, I lay my head upon my arms. The flood gates I was desperately trying to keep at bay finally break loose of their confinement and I can’t help but bawl. For the first time ever I regret the decision not to talk, to not take Alpha Black’s offer of sanctuary from the impending doom.
• How could I have dismissed so easily the help Jamie could have provided me? How could I have been so careless to forget the help he has provided me over the last two years? Just because I’m not conscious enough to remember him being there doesn’t mean I haven’t been told. Olivia has repeatedly told me stories about Jamie bringing me back to my room. How he and his father have used glue to seal the worst of my wounds. She has even heard her father brag about the beatings he’s given Jamie and Mr. Jenkins for their refusal to abandon me. No matter how hard I try to separate from them Jamie simply won’t let go. I guess that’s what the fated beta is, fiercely loyal to his alpha.
• It’s as I recover from my hard cry that I purposely start slowing my breathing, concentrating hard on going into the trace-like state that’s necessary to enter the channel that Jessa uses to communicate. During my stay with Dr. Pierce she was relaxed enough with my presence that she spoke of wanting to establish a connection with me. It’s ultimately what she wanted to start introducing to me when everything went wrong the first time I was alone with her.