Chapter 41 Something Greater [Titania]

• Kristoff stays away in Tennessee for one week. Against my wishes. To make amendments, he lets his thug, Ernest, drive me wherever I want. But I mostly visit the healthcare center to see Uncle Patrick. And this time I get to stay till nightfall if I wish. It's a tempting peace offering, but I don't accept it. He's all shades of wrong for this.
• Contrary to what the nurse told us the other day, Uncle Patrick is not getting better, and with Kristoff's confirmation to his fears, it doesn't make it any easier for the both of us. I knew this would happen. He trusted me so much. Asked me calmly if Adrian was abusing while while it was all going down, and I lied right to his face. Keeping such a huge secret to myself, despite the close bond we share, has to be the most selfish decision I've ever made in my entire life. But it's not really my fault. I don't want him to feel aggrieved, or blame himself. What happened between Adrian and I was sickening. It's disgusting. It's wrong. It's maniacal.
• What Kristoff says about it not being my fault because I was so young and shit, doesn't matter one bit. It happened, and it left a deep scar in my soul. A deep stain on my childhood, and automatically, on everything and everyone I've ever held dear.