Chapter 38

• MILES:
• I didn't know how to admit to myself that I couldn't get a good night's sleep. I had a recurrence of that night and as soon as Saturday slowly unfolded, my heart was bitter, sad, and uncomfortable. I had a familiar feeling that I hate precisely today. Why? No idea. It was a reoccurring feeling that I have felt today before. This inconvenience pushed me out of bed, and I thought distracting myself with a run would help until I learned of Meredith's absence.
• Today, I wanted to have her within eyesight. It was more than making sure she showed up for the birthday. I wanted to be by her…side. As unreasonable as it sounded, that was what was happening to me. I had some weird emotions that, somehow, today would be off for her. I would love to get an explanation as to when Meredith became my problem. Even the women I dated never got this much attention and concern from me. The only person who bothered me was myself.