Chapter 8 Can't Get Him Out Of My Mind(Part Three)

• "It's really nothing." I stood up from the bed and said. I don't care if my head is still hurting because I can bear the pain. I went to the kitchen to see if Jack had made anything to eat because I had smelled something good while sleeping.
• "You can't just tell me it's nothing, Johan?" He said this as he stood by the kitchen door.
• "Why can't I tell you that?" It's entirely up to me whether I tell you or not. I just don't want to say anything, Jack.' I stated solemnly.
• At the very least, that should indicate to him that I'm not in the mood to talk.
• He stood there for a few minutes while I was taking my plate to dish up some food that Jack had cooked. Oh, sorry my bad. His mother prepares the meals.
• I noticed him walk away as I was serving myself some food. I'm guessing he understood the language, but I know he'll bring it up again, and I think he just feels it's not the right time.
• Jack and I eat at each other's houses all the time; his house is my house, and mine is his. We're extremely close, so it's not a big deal.
• I entered the room, shut the door where I had previously slept, and sat on the bed to eat my food. I noticed a long sleeved shirt next to me.
• This isn't Jack's long sleeved shirt. I sniffed it and took it. Oh my gosh. It belonged to Haru. I can smell him from anywhere, and I was aroused all of a sudden.
• I took the shirt and placed it on the bed away from me. No way am I sniffing that shirt again. I took a spoon and began eating the food because I couldn't get that shirt out of my head. It was Haru's, but how did it get here in the first place?
• I dropped my food on the bed and continued sniffing it, and before I knew it, it was gone. I was unbuckling my trouser belt. This is insane, what am I doing right now. Is it because of teenage hormones that I'm doing these things?
• I unzipped my trouser after unbuckling it and took out my crotch.
• I can't believe I'm doing this to myself.
• I sniffed it some more, then rubbed my crotch and moaned. I've finally let myself go after such a long time.
• I was still sniffing it when I began stroking my crotch and fantasizing about Haru kissing me and sucking my nipples. What makes me want him so badly? This is similar to the last time. I kept stroking myself, moving my crotch up and down to raise my butt.
• I want him.
• I kept stroking him and moaning his name.
• "Haru" I remembered the day he kissed me; it was so incredible. I began to stroke faster and faster and faster. I moaned Haru's name as I shot my sweet release.
• On my belly, I'm staring at the sperm. I felt like a fucking fool, so ashamed of myself.
• How many times do I need to tell myself to stop thinking about Haru?
• *This isn't your first time kissing a guy, is it?* Those words were still haunting me. Then I remember that I need to clean up right away before Jack comes in, or I'll be screwed.
• I took a tissue from beside the bed and wiped the sperm away from my body. This is insane.
• I don't want to remember what I did this morning, and I don't want to remember it ever again.
• After I finished cleaning myself, I went to the toilet, inserted the tissue, and flushed it.
• Coming out of the toilet, I heard someone laughing and went out of the room to see who it was.
• When I came out, I saw the others, and Charlotte was the first person to notice me and approach me, hugging me.
• "How are you, baby?" she asked, stroking my cheek with the tip of her finger.
• I replied. "I'm fine, babe."
• "You sure?"
• "Yes."
• "Have you eaten?"
• "Yes," I replied. I didn't even finish the food I took from the pot.
• She rested one hand on my brow and the other on her own.
• "Jack, was right. You're better now?'
• "I've always been better," I joked.
• "This isn't any better. Something is bothering you, and you didn't want to tell me.' She scowled.
• "'I have nothing to hide from you,' I assured her. "'If anything bothers me, I'll tell you okay,' I said, and she nodded and hugged me.
• Isn't it true that I'm a horrible person? I just did something stupid and fucking disgusting in the room a while ago, and I'm lying to my girlfriend about it. I feel bad, and I wish I wasn't dating her; perhaps she'll find someone better than me. I'm not sure why I'm thinking about this.
• "Please excuse me, lovebirds. Can you guys do this somewhere else and stop reminding us that we're still single?' It was Haru when I looked up. What exactly is he doing here?
• "Haru,'
• "Hi Johan,' he continued, still smiling.
• "'Hello.' I moved my gaze away from him and away from Charlotte.
• "'Hey, how are you feeling?' Ava inquired, touching my brow.
• "'I'm fine, I'm fine.' I sighed and yanked her hands away from my brow.
• "'I'm glad you're okay now.' She cracked a grin. "Thank Haru for carrying you yesterday; you were hugging him so tightly that you didn't want to let him go?' She burst out laughing.
• "What!!! I was taken aback.
• "That's right, man. 'Come on, we have classes tomorrow, and the teacher is going to scold us until the earth falls down,' Jack grumbled. Ava and Charlotte burst out laughing. When I looked at Haru, he was staring at me as well, but I turned my head and left them to talk about boys and girls and such.
• "Where are you going?" Charlotte inquired as she sat down at the table.
• "I'm going to lie down for a while because my head is still hurting," I said.
• "OK, please take care," she said as she blew me a kiss, but I just laughed and started walking away.
• "You didn't blow me a kiss, and you didn't tell me you loved me," she grumbled.
• I felt embarrassed, but it's not the first time I've done this, or is it because Haru is staring at me while sitting at the table.
• "Hey, do the same thing to her or our eardrums will burst." He rolled his eyes as he ate his food at the table, and Ava joined him. I was curious as to when Jack brought his food to the table.
• "Can I do that later?' What is wrong with me, I wondered as I quickly walked away. She only asked for a kiss and the words "I Love You," which I couldn't do. I went to the room and opened it just as I was about to close it.
• "'Would you mind letting me in?' Haru said as he entered the room and closed the door.