Chapter 2 How It All Started(Part Two)

• I began dating him after a month. My day was full when I was with him. It was as though I never had a need for anything. I no longer had a sense of emptiness inside of me. I was overflowing. I didn't have to worry about offending anyone when I was with him since I could say or do anything. I can be myself while I'm around him.
• This was how Haru and I started dating.
• FLASHBACK.
• I'm not sure where the others are; I can't believe they skipped class without me. I began strolling towards the canteen to see if any of them was present.
• Someone suddenly drew me back, and we both went into the chemistry class, where he locked the door while I was dusting my arm that had been touched by his hand. Who could this person be? He was wearing a black jacket hoodie, so I couldn't see him clearly.
• 'What the hell is going on here....' He took off his hoodie and peered at me at that point.
• 'Haru, what are you doing here?' I inquired, my curiosity piqued.
• 'You were the one, I kissed you last night at the party, right?' He said this while glancing at me.
• 'Wha...t ... the hell... a...re you talking about,' I stuttered. Why am I stuttering, Why did he say it out of nowhere? I'm not sure what he's up to; is this a joke or a game?
• 'I know what I'm saying, I kissed you last night, but you quickly pushed me away when your girlfriend approached?' he said. I was taken aback by the way he spoke. Is he unconcerned about it all...
• 'That's ridiculous. Isn't it revolting to you? I mean, who the hell comes up to his fellow guy one morning and says, "I kissed you while I was drunk. How come it makes no sense to me?' I said this while putting my hands in the pockets of my black slacks.
• I'm genuinely acting as if I have no idea what he's talking about. Yes, I understand what he's talking about, but admitting it to him is embarrassing. I have to remain vigilant in order to keep track of what he's up to; I can't trust him. I'm not sure if he's recording stuff or not, so I have to be cautious.
• 'You are correct. But don't you remember how passionately I kissed you?' He said that with a smile on his face. He's very attractive. *Johan, snap out of it. Always remember that he's a guy* I thought. 'I think you're insane, please excuse me.' I walked past him on my way to the door. He shoved me towards the door and gave me a kiss on the lips. Oh, my goodness. I couldn't help myself. The kiss was fantastic. He continued to kiss me, and before I knew it, he was carrying me up and place me at the head of the table. We kissed and moaned incessantly. When he unbuttoned my sleeve and began kissing my chest, I had no idea. Then he came to a halt and peered at me, his lips flushed.
• 'I had no idea you could kiss that way?' He murmured this while licking his lips.
• 'I was...carried away for a moment,' I confessed, blushing. What happened to me, what's the matter with me? I'm not sure how I could have let him kiss me like that. Why?
• As I stepped down from the table and began walking towards the door, I pushed him away from me and began buttoning my sleeve.
• 'This isn't the first time you've kissed a guy, is it?' He gave me a friendly smile. How in the world did he know that, I was perplexed.
• I inquired, "How did you know that?" I've kissed a guy before, but I've never told anyone about it. Jack is completely unaware of it too. This is unbelievable.
• 'You kissed me on the way through. It was almost as though you were starving for it,' he gushed. 'Or, to put it another way, you've been waiting for it to happen, and it appears that you're gay but want it disguised.' He expressed his thoughts.
• Through a kiss, he discovered that. He is insane.
• 'Please don't say anything like that.' 'Are you sure you're not gay?' I inquired. I wasn't sure of myself; I'd never considered myself to be gay to begin with.
• 'I'm aware that you require my services. I see it, and you have a hard boner?' He had lust in his eyes and stared at my boner.
• 'Haru, stop this. I'm not like you,' I asserted, using my hands to demonstrate my point. I covered my groin with my other hand. I didn't realize how obvious it was going to be. 'And, Johan, to answer your questions. It's true I've always been gay?' He said confidently, his arms crossed across his chest.
• 'You can't be serious,' I murmured, turning my back on him. It was a distraction to be staring at him right now. Why will a ladies man, like him be gay.
• 'I am, and I know you are gay or maybe bisexual,' He shook his head sideways and continued to smile. And he just concluded and why is he telling me all this.
• 'Just shut up, shut up, shut the fuck up, and don't pretend like you know who I am,' I yelled angrily. I hurried out of the chemistry lab after opening the door. I don't want to see him again, how did he know that? What a blunder! Because he attends the same high school as me, I must do everything possible to avoid him. *This isn't the first time you've kissed a guy, is it?' As I continued to run, I shook my head. Those words, he said to me, triggered memories I don't want to revisit. Not now, and not ever. I regretted what I had done, I don't want to ever remember those memories.