Chapter 191

• I take my time entering the room, placing the small box of items I gathered on the dresser beside the door. I pull the body pillows out first, tossing them gently on the bed. I pull my medication out next, looking at each one before placing them on the dresser as well. They started me back on all my asthma medication as quickly as they could and they have given me my refills without me asking for them.
• While I was in the med wing for several weeks Dr. Pierce came in and helped me with my nebulizer treatments three times a day. Once I was able to move upstairs they gave me a machine and permission to back down to twice a day as long as my symptoms were under control. This is the first time that I haven’t had to fight to take care of myself. It should be a relaxing revelation but tonight I’m falling apart.
• I stop at the bottle labeled Effexor, open the lid and remove a single pill before realizing I didn’t bring anything to drink back with me. My eyes dart around the room, landing easily upon the small hotel size fridge near the floor. I walk over and open it up, hoping that some water had been stashed inside. I slam the door shut finding no such luck. I’m leaning against the entertainment center, with my face in my hands as I hear the door slowly creak open.