Chapter 71
- At least I couldn’t even see him. I’m not ready.. I’m not ready yet to read his notebook. I wasn’t there for him. I wasn’t there to share his pain. I wasn’t there to listen to his last words. What kind of a sister am I? I hate myself and not protecting Noah. Why? Now how am I supposed to live without him? He was my life. I did everything for him but he’s already gone. I just can’t go through this pain anymore. I lost my parents, Noah, and also my baby. Why am I just useless? Why don’t I just die? I can’t live with memories. Noah waited for the whole damn nine months but he lost every hope. I was late… I was just late. I wasn’t ready to let him go. I wasn’t.. I want him. He’s my only brother and the only family that I have…. It hurts and I can’t believe it. He’s gone….. He was waiting for me but I just couldn’t be there for him. Guilty is killing me… I want to die…. With those hurtful memories and thoughts, I fell asleep finally.
- I woke up after a few hours and it’s already evening. I went into the bathroom and showered and changed into a set of black clothes. Then I went to the hospital. I saw my little brother laying in a coffin lifelessly. There are no words or actions in the world to describe the pain in my heart. I was just a useless sister for him. I saw the little kids that my brother used to play with crying and it broke my heart even more.
- After the funeral was done, I looked up at the dark sky which was about to rain. My brother’s untimely death is something that I will never be able to forget. I wanted to die so I slowly walked towards the sea. I wanted to kill myself and join with Noah but when I was about to jump I remembered something. My son. I will return the money to them and take him with me. With that, I went home and grabbed the money that they paid me and left the house. I went straight to the mansion that I lived in for nine months. As I entered through the gate I saw a car parked in and all doors were open. I went straight into the house and saw an old woman holding my baby. Suddenly, she looked at me and her eyes grew dark.