Chapter 61

• I really wanted to be with Alison, so I ended it with you.
• I began drinking, purposefully wanting to get drunk so I could have the confidence to eb around her and then the first night I slept with her I felt at peace. Not actually having sex with her. We just slept next to each other, but her body fit mine so perfectly and I really did feel at home. When I woke up, I think I knew that my feelings for her were so much stronger than I intended them to be. I immediately left. I left her in bed, and I drove to yours, ending things between us for good. Everything was going good between Alison and I; we weren't labelling anything. We were just two young adults enjoying time together and I really, really liked it.
• You wouldn't accept it, at first. Instead, you wanted to talk. You came over and you were so persistent, despite me telling you multiple times. I told myself, I have until she finishes work to let you down and end us completely, but then she came home early and you were so persistent, that you even took your shirt off to try and seduce me to stay with you. And as you try and kiss me, of course she has to walk in and see it.