Chapter 55

• Once I get home I immediately get into the shower. I shave myself from head to toe, ensuring not a single hair was left in sight. Once I was sure that everything was as smooth as a baby's bottom, I get out and dry myself off quickly. I didn't have that long to get ready and I wanted everything to be perfect for tonight.
• I redo my makeup, adding an extra fair by adding sparkly eyeshadow and curl my hair running my fingers through the hair sprayed strands so I'm left with loose beach wave curls on my tiny bob. Once that was all done and I was satisfied that I looked good, I was on to deciding what the hell I should wear. I stood in front of my closet in only my towel. I could hear my heart racing in my ears.
• It's fine, Ali... You're just about to have sex for the first time tonight with a guy that you love. Everything will be okay. My anxiety was going through the roof. I began thinking about the pros and cons on every outfit I owned. I wanted to look good, but I also wanted to not look like I'm dressing over the top either. I was looking into it too deeply. I thought a dress would be okay, but it was also cold this time of year, so I factored that in as well. I ended up deciding on a long sleeve dress in an olive shade. The neckline was high, almost a turtleneck, and the hem went below my knee. It was a tight dress and clung to my body like a second skin. I opted for my black boots and my black leather jacket. By the time five rolled on past, I was dressed, ready and anxious.