Chapter 3468 I Love Fucking & Sucking Cock:>Ep2
- Yet, my life was not all roses. Before I married, filled with anxiety and trepidation, nervous about telling Jim about my sordid, sexual past, yet not wanting to start our marriage with lies, I needed to tell him all that he needed to know. Deeply in love with him and believing that love conquered all, I surprised even myself with all the sexual exploits that I remembered and wanted to tell him. If I was a gifted, romance writer, I could have written a book of all the sex that I had in that ten-year period with a multitude of men and women.
- Yet, fearing the worst, if I dared tell my future husband every, sexual thing that I've done with so many men and women, he may no longer want me. Disappointed in me, and not able to understand my need for sex from not only men but also from women, he may no longer love me. Instead of him thinking of me as his fiancée, he may think of me as the whore that I am and would no longer want anything to do with me. To be honest, now that I saw myself in a different light, I wouldn't blame him.
- My first time having a guilty conscience, as if I had an angel on one shoulder and the devil on the other shoulder, I was locked in a personal quandary of should I tell him or should I not tell him of my extensive, sexual past. What would happen if I told him or what would happen if I don't tell him? What are the ramifications of telling him or not telling him?