Chapter 28 Love and Lust

• [Isaac]
• It is because I find it so hard to control my desires. It is because I find it so difficult to keep Clement from infusing and taking over partially. It is because I find her attractive. It is because I don't know how else to react. I told myself, my elf….maybe convinced ourselves to believe these things. Otherwise, I know I will allow in self-pity and feed that wench’s ego and happiness. I am a rotten creature inside out. I don’t know how to be civil, don’t know how to react any other way, so I react rashly. I spew out venomous words that are bound to hurt the other like I did to Kathryn just now.
• Had Clement not stopped me, I would have said far worse things. I could feel her tears as our lips meshed together, I pressed her into the bed and she didn’t protest. I could feel that somewhere between living here and trying to survive, she had lost the fight. I held her wrists in one hand, keeping them above her head while exploring her body with the other. I knew this was shameful, toxic even some might say but I am helpless. I want her to stay bound to me but I can’t bind her. I want her to acknowledge me but I push her away. I want her to stay beside me but I can’t give her the love or care she might expect. And the worse thing is, I can't…I won’t let her go.